You may have noticed that I haven't been posting much lately, and it's mostly because I have so much going on in my professional writing career that (unpaid but much loved) Beaunz has been neglected.
The plan is to keep posting as and when possible, but it won't be every day for the next little while. If you want to know when new posts go live, you can sign up to receive 'Beaunz mail' on the top right, or like Beaunz on facebook, so new posts show up on your newsfeed.
I do have some beautiful things I'm trialling at the moment, so I promise to post soon.
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I’ve commented on Beaunz before that I’m one of those people who loses her appetite completely when I’m stressed or emotional, and unfortunately that’s been true for the last couple of months. For various personal and professional reasons I’ve been under the pump, and it’s not been unusual for me to get to dinner and feel dreadful then realise I haven’t had more than tea and coffee all day.
The result is that I’m looking and feeling decidedly scrawny, all my lovely girly clothes look like they’re being worn by an adolescent boy, and my jeans have that unsightly saggy bit in the middle at the back, where my bum should be. Nice…not.
Anyway, the reason I decided to write about it on Beaunz is because I was trying on clothes in a shop recently and the assistant commented that she wished she had my ‘figure’. What figure?! How can it be that this woman wants to look like me? Especially when I’m feeling so unfeminine and self-conscious about it. Give me boobs over peanuts any day!
But then, I’m also reminded of when I had to put on 5 kilos before being allowed to start fertility treatment, and feeling enormous and equally unlike myself during that time.
It’s just got me thinking about weight, and body image, and how inextricably linked they are to our self-esteem. I know it’s a bit heavier than my usual posts (pardon the pun) but I would love to know your thoughts and experiences. Are you happy with your body right now? Would you like to be curvier or thinner? And when was the last time you felt truly happy with your body?
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One of the lovely staff at Dizengoff commented that my afternoon tea was perfectly coordinated with my handbag on Saturday. So true!
It got me thinking about love hearts, and how much that happy little shape lifts my spirits whenever it appears in my life. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic.
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